Tenacious Warrior you say, who is that? Well, I am glad you asked. I never saw myself in anyway shape or form like this. I was the quiet girl who could not speak. My Mom and Grandma told me that i was stubborn & for a while i would not say Mom or It took me forever to respond. I never realized that that was how the Lord was going to shape me. I was unwilling to take no for an answer. I have Cerebral Palsy that affects my right side of my body. I fought to be seen unwilling to let the world tell me I couldn't do anything. Why do I need to use two hands when was one was enough 😂? I used the one hand when I was younger to turn my twin sister Kaylin and I on the sit spin. Flexed my brave there.
My Tenacious Spirit was already born in me I just did not know it was in me or how to express what the Lord had given me. My mom was the first tenacious spirit, she was unwilling to see me any different from my sisters. We figured out yes how I can do things, but she was the Canaanite Woman in the bible that was unwilling to see her daughter as anything's but healed. Matthew 15;22,25,28. Now my mom never saw me Healed, (we'll get to that a little later) Her faith that kept her and I going through all the Dr visits and Physical Therapy each time I would get better was enough push to keep doing these things to make my life more accessible. I am grateful for the drive my parents had in these years to show me what was possible.
All of those years of working hard to be able to use my right side was a great start, but I had a lot of heart work yet to do. I was derailed with some little t trauma that happened to me. It all started when my mom got her first Breast Cancer diagnosis in the mid 90's and then it would continue every couple of years till that took her life in May of 2003. My grandma had that diagnosis as well 2yrs after mom's 1 bout of B.C. which also took Grandma in January of 2003. I was good at keeping myself quiet. I did not know how to use my mouth when i was frustrated with my emotions and my body. Before when I was a kid, I would hit and bite myself because I did not know how to tell anyone that I was frustrated with my body and how it worked, then i kept stuffing all of my feelings inside until i would scream.
That led to me having all sorts of pain issues with my Cerebral Palsy. I started having Pain on and off in 2004 and in 2006 it became a constant 24/7 issue where i willed myself to work, at the daycare/preschool. Then i collapsed when i got home and slept in my living room for a good year. This went on like this until Fall of 2019 That Fall Changed me forever!
2018-2019 I met a ministry called Revelation Wellness from a High school friend that is now a dear Sister. She invited me to a challenge that Rev was doing and i was like ok what is she up to? I was craving Community, I had one person that is like a daughter to me give me a charge to find some community in Dec of 2018, so i was on the hunt. When this High school friend invited me to the fitness class,
I was like that was a joke, how can I measure up to her? Hold on stay with me! The line that got me was Noone is Disqualified, WHAT??? no way there has to be a catch. No that is what She really meant. fast forward i loved going to class and decided in March 2019 i was going through training. my Tenacious Mother came to me and spoke Audibly & said YOU were MADE for this. This started my Healing. I had pain still Didn't believe that i could do this. Got through 9 weeks of training, then went to in person retreat and the Lord started his healing process inside of me and in the physical. He started slow
ng in healing from my feet to my arm om the right side. I have more flexibility in my right side then i have ever had. He has Lengthened my muscles in my leg and hand and range of motion So how my mom saw me from the start is now how i am living Free and Whole in my mind spirit and last my body. It is not worrying about the body first. We have to start in the mind and that is where the sticks and dirt are. We need to clean those up and go for the truth of what God says about you and I more than what the worlds says, World will always lead us astray to the snack in sticks and dirt. Be that Tenacious Spirit, Flexing our Brave Audaciously Courageous into the world that says you are not the Woman or Man for the Job.
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